23rd & 24th Treatments

I started my iron pills and suddenly experienced horrendous regression. I am literally back to how I was. I am so dizzy, especially when I lay down. My symptoms are identical to BPPV. My period was 6 days late which was UNHEARD of! I can't think clearly. You know when you walk into a room and completely forgot what you were doing? About every two minutes I experience that. I had an anxiety attack at the clinic on Monday about my supplements. I had fallen asleep or passed out or something that day and could not function. The doc took half my supplements away. I still don't know why. I stopped the iron but I still have low ferritin and my red blood cells are still small. I just cried and cried. On Tuesday they gave me a niacin flush IV and oh my gosh! My skin turned into red blotches that felt like chemical burns from head to toe. I felt like I got punched in the stomach and had to shut my IV off. Luckily the torture was short lived and I spent the remainder of the morning visiting with an ALS patient. She makes me grateful to have Lyme. Anyway. There has been so much stress lately and life has not allowed me to be sick. Now I am getting sicker! I can learn to live with pain but I can't live with the dizziness and fatigue and complete and utter confusion and sensory overload. My heart and lungs and stomach have been doing horribly. I could barely harness enough energy to attempt to enjoy and be present for my little boy's first day of preschool. I want so badly to know what happened and why I am experiencing such horror when I am 24 treatments in and was pretty functional but now I can't do anything. This fatigue is completely new, too. I need to just take it easy and allow myself to be sick and be alone in a peaceful atmosphere. I need others to allow me the same. My mind and body feel like they're giving out and the Lyme has taken over. I don't know what needs to change.