8th Treatment

Today I did a spot check, did my IV bag, did a foot detox, had neural injections in my SI joints, was given a new insufflation bag, and supplements for my heart that have been on back order for a long time. My heart is in bad shape from the Lyme so I am anxious to start these supplements. The NP did my injections and even though they were as horrific as always, she was skilled and kind. I really should be doing the deep Prolozone injections but they are so unbearably painful I'm afraid I literally won't live through it! I talked to the Lyme coordinator and told her how I don't really feel better. She says she thinks I'll definitely need 20+ treatments because I'm a very sick girl and told me it's usually 2 steps forward, 1 step back, 4 steps forward, 2 steps back, etc, with this disease and this treatment. She also says Dr J knows when to lay on the gas and when to hit the breaks and I think he's had to hit the breaks with me a lot 'cause  I'm super sensitive. I was doing ozone and vitamin c in my iv's toward the beginning and I told him how bad I herxed so I haven't had them since. I'm anxious to start them again because I keep reading how much it kills the Lyme. She is just so wonderful and motherly. Every staff member at the clinic is just exceptionally personable and amazing. We spent five hours there today. We took our sweet time because we did not want to return to our dingy motel. 

We are running short on money and are having to really be careful. My son is wearing extra clothes from foster care donations, I was wearing clothes from the DI yesterday, my husband is ordering the cheapest fast food on the menu, and we are in the cheapest, crummiest motel in town (we will be staying at a better one next time where the clinic's patients get a discount). All so we can afford these life saving treatments for me. We talked about selling our furniture last night but I hope it doesn't come to that. I always think about leaving our house and going into a little apartment but really, our house is such a good deal, it's the same price as the apartments next to us. So it would be counter productive, plus, moving would just add extra stress and pressure to my ailing mind and body so we will have to pinch our pennies elsewhere. I HAVE to continue these treatments, even if it means panhandling (ok maybe not, but it has crossed my mind SEVERAL times).