Hard Day

I have been very weak and twitchy today. I'm also very groggy and confused. My legs have been weak and I feel like I should be moving around when I hold still. My left foot is vibrating and twitching. My eyes burn. I've got the gasping, jump out of my skin feeling that I can't even explain. My chest hurts and my scalp and lips are tingling. My hands and fingers don't work right. Ringing in ears. Neck feels like it can't hold my head up or straight. I was in my little scooter grocery cart at the store and I felt like I was lost and didn't know what I needed or where I was going or what I was doing. My mom was with me so I wasn't afraid but it's really difficult. I'm so hungry. I'm always hungry but it doesn't even feel like good goes to my stomach when I eat. It's just a constant, empty hunger feeling. It's a tormenting feeling. I had to wear sunglasses in the store cuz I have sensory overload. I did bond with a horse on the side of the road today. My mom pulled over so my son could see them but I was the one who ultimately benefitted. The horse was so powerful and calm and I felt like he was sharing his energy with me. I loved it. I wonder if he could smell my disease. I'm trying to watch American Idol but my brain can't process all the lights and noise. I'm a VERY musical person, but the Lyme  takes that from me most days. Some days I can enjoy it, but most days it is just a jumbled noisy unprocessed mess of confusion and irritating sounds.